“Seems like a Forgiving kind of day“…..Ronnie upon seeing the weather this am.
I don’t know how families forgive the killer of their children. I mean, I don’t. Apparently at some point, they’ve made some compromise with their loss, and they think that to Forgive is by far better than letting the horrible offender live in their brain…..I kinda get that, although not to that extent. Look, we all know that bad things….very bad things….do happen to good people….innocent people, sometimes, evil doesn’t have a face, so you’re stuck trying to Forgive an IDEAL rather than a living, breathing being….I’ve fought that fight……..Forgiveness….it’s not a feeling one can muster….can’t fake it….it’s a journey…one foot in front of the other….sometimes for life……but when you finally reach it….it’s good stuff.
Very early in our relationship Merrill and I hit a bump. A HUGE bump….I was verily offended. My knee jerk reaction to being hurt is much the same as Al Capone….”You bring a knife, I bring a gun“…..because WRATH says I can! I was actually thinking about that yesterday….thinking about the horrible things I’ve done to good people, and him…….an Eye for an Eye mess…..like a wounded animal, strike at me or mine and I will bury you with extreme prejudice……I couldn’t help myself….There was something wrong with me…..but I was hurt long before he ever arrived on the scene….It’s obvious what became of Merrill and I…we got past it, Forgiveness flowed like a freaking fountain….and we’re together…..FOREVER…(evil laugh)…I showed him….but what about all the others? I destroyed good people….I only pray they’ve forgiven me..
Forgiveness is taking a big plate of crap, one that’s filled with the degradation of human soils, placing it on the ground….and walking away. There’s so much good stuff in the Bible right? Forgiveness is one of them….not for Him, but for us. Forgiveness culls the infestation of hate that fills our soul when wounded. I can’t tell you to forgive, I can’t advise you not too….your pain is your journey….like any woman, there are times when I’ll say to him, “Remember when….?” and he’ll say, “That was 25 years ago WOMAN. Let it go“….LOL, I DO love him…. 5 months into the relationship Merrill experienced the crazy that was all me…and He held on…God help him….he held on….Forgiveness is not about holding on, but letting go…Hate will consume you, Wrath will destroy you….the Devil hopes you won’t see that…..Forgive and loosen the tether on your soul….I wish you all the Peace, Joy and Success in the world….you’re gonna need it. Be Blessed.
Remember you set the Tone, you ARE the Example. BE KIND to each other. Show GRACE and MERCY to all those who cross your path your path today. With your Daily Affirmations complete, enjoy your Tuesday.