“I have to walk away from you now“…Ronnie, coldly and calculatedly threatening a counselor.
I was reading a post in a Nursing Group, when my heart was touched by the struggle of a woman, who had been told she may not be cut out for The Nursing Profession. I get it….I think when the determination of readiness is made, the decision should be OURS, not the strangers who have no idea the trials we’ve been through. I mean, where do certain people get off, telling others, what they may or may not be good in, at or around? Pisses me off. So, I was on the phone with Chamberlin College in California yesterday, apparently, I have to take a personality test, and if I don’t “pass” that test, (that is if my personality doesn’t show Nursing as a choice), I won’t be accepted into the program. Not only does this pigeonhole my talent, but they clearly don’t know me. Refuse my admissions and I’ll put you on so much blast, NASA will ask what’s your secret….Push It….Get up on THIS (LOL). Seriously friends, if you WANT something, you gotta go get it…no one is going to hand it to you, but you’ve heard that from me before.
The Kiddie Pool Counselor violated me three times…..Three Freaking Times and he didn’t even buy me dinner. I usually like a little foreplay before I commit, but okay, it is his house. If you’re just now joining us, my counselor, ya know, the man paid to do his job, let my Math credits slip by…..but I was in his office every month, every damned month, and he let my Math credit expire…..I remember sitting in the chair across from him, after being told I was not eligible to take the TEASE test, and feeling strangely calm on the outside, but shaking on my inside, as my spleen RAGED freely. That’s a dangerous level of crazy right there folks. For months, I endured his passive-aggressive attitude toward me, a NON-TRADITIONAL STUDENT (It means OLD….OLD Effing student)..every time I sat down….He didn’t even look up from his computer when he asked me one day, “Are you really SURE, you want to be a nurse?“….He had to have pictures of the Admin in provocative positions….JERK. So I get it, Little Sister….I swallowed my pride, and endured him…even though he got that relationship twisted…because I wanted to be a Nurse…and so, sitting livid, in his office, I asked him, “How could this have happen?“….”Yes well, Mrs. Philips, your credits, are your responsibility. I can’t help you“….and like that….I was terrified…because I knew if I didn’t get out of his office right then and there, I’d be arrested. “I have to walk away from you now!” I told him and walked out the door.
Another year of Math, another year of hell in the Kiddie Pool….but as I think back to that hell now, I have to kinda, sorta, thank that creep, because he gave me the opportunity to practice my (what would later become) ENDURANCE. I was a changed woman, and I knew I had to help others change too….It was so challenging trying to convince a Little Sister that just because she bombed a test, it didn’t mean she wasn’t cut out for Nursing….so many mean-spirited, trick questions that benefited no one….Life Guards took great pleasure in tricking the babies….SMH. You’d be surprised at the sadistic nature of some of the Life Guards at The Kiddie Pool, but you’d also be surprised to know who really DID have your back the whole time…Push It..….Keep moving forward, never look back, and when you need a rest, take a load off and place it upon those who’ve gone before you…I mean, that’s what we’re here for right? But trust me on the “Walk Away” part. You will never regret counsel that prevents you from being convicted of assault. Take it from me….I might have some experience with that. Be Blessed.
Remember you set the Tone, you ARE the example. BE KIND to each other. Show GRACE and MERCY to all those who cross your path today. With your Daily Affirmations complete, enjoy your Friday.